Becoming

Butterfly album

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As I do life, I’m coming to the realisation that for me it’s all  about becoming. Becoming a young lady, becoming a wife, becoming a mother. Life is a process much like the journey from caterpillar to butterfly.

When a caterpillar makes a cocoon it uses the cocoon as a place of transformation. It goes through changes that are not seen by the naked eye because they are done in secret. And just when that’s all done, it has to fight it’s way out of the cocoon before it’s true beauty can be revealed. Once free it begins to fly, to soar, it’s free, the restrictions it had as a caterpillar seem to be far away from it’s current position. A new chapter has begun, it’s name has change because it’s now been transformed.

I’m finding this to be the case for me. The process of becoming has meant that there have been and are some changes that have to take place in me in order to become everything I should be.

Now I’m not ashamed to say I’ve had some challenges on this journey that have pushed me to the limit, some which have required me to really take a good long look at myself. It’s caused me to shed those things (still working on that) and put on other things (grace, love, forgiveness, need more of that).

The journey to becoming is somewhat painful at times, you see it’s easier to remain in a place that’s comfortable, never daring to go outside of that, never putting faith into action, or walking out those words spoken over your life. Sometimes it’s just easier not to try because, well it’s just easier. But in my heart I know that to become I have to let go, I have to trust God.

I’ve had to face myself and I didn’t always like what I saw, there’s were so many things I knew I had to deal with. I had a choice to either stay in this place or move.

I chose and I’m choosing to let go, and let God do the work in my heart and life.

I’ve had to learn to forgive (boy there’s so much freedom in forgiveness who knew!) and not be embarrassed to go for pray and ministry when I need it, recognising that there are times we all need help.

Am I there yet? No but I know I’m on the right road to getting there. As I continue to press into the things of God, (Philippians 3:14). I am beginning to Become, become what he has planned for me. And by drawing closer to Him I’m sensing in my heart that God is beginning to stir something up inside of me. A longing, a passion for more of Him, so much more of Him.

I look in the mirror now and  I am, truly beginning to understand how much God values me and how I should value myself too. I’m beginning to see who I’m becoming and finding strength in that.

Many of us we spend so much time trying to be the labels people put on us, when all we really need to do is stop and listen to the voice of God, let him shape us, by His Spirit because when He does it turns out just right. Ask God to put people around you who will journey with you.

This journey is teaching me that I don’t have to compete with anyone; I can just be ME! It’s led me to a place where I can celebrate others. Your victory is my victory. Your success is my success. Your breakthrough is my breakthrough because I’m secure in Christ. #Kingdom.

“We delight in the beauty of the butterfly, but rarely admit the changes it has gone through to achieve the beauty” – Maya Angelou

Until the next time be blessed, from the worshipper who happens to be…